You Can't Promise Me Forever...

When I heard the word forever, I instantly thought, infinity. Commitments change when you grow and forever lose its credibility. When we met, it was like I had known you forever. There was no "stranger danger" in sight. I knew you with all my soul. When you spoke, you held a mirror up for me to finally see me. I turned away. I never wanted to look at the depth of me until you. I turned back to look because I wanted to see what you had seen. But the mirror worked two ways and you ran from your reflection in me. You ran without saying goodbye when just days prior you promised you would love me forever.

 I wondered if we would run out time...

I wondered if I would ever see you again. I wondered if I would ever hear your voice again. I wanted to call you a liar, but I couldn't because I had known you before forever existed. We remained dormant until we couldn't take the distance any longer. Why twirl me under the moonlight, if you had to leave me again? Why hold me until our souls melted into one? Why look at one another to heal our covered wounds? 

You said you would love me forever but you never said goodbye. Now there is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you. I don't want forever because it pains me to exist here without you. I search the depths of me and still find you here, and your voice lingers in my mind as you whisper forever. 11:11 reminds me of you several times a day.Forever huh? It seems like forever I have been dreaming of you. I don't like forever if it is not with you. You never promised a physical forever you promised the infinite forever because your spirit remains with me and me with you. I miss you but I wish you would have never awakened me.