ta-ta


"The day u chose 2 leave me
u rained constantly outside
In truth I swore the rain 2 be
The tears in Cupid's eyes" (Tupac Amaru Shakur)

There is nowhere to start and there is nowhere to end and the in-between has me restless. Sometimes there is only one thing left to say and that is ta-ta. The wish to no longer long for you. The strength to walk away completely whole and not in two. The courage to smile with love all the way through. The courage to tell the Universe "Thank you" and not feel blue. 

You see I wanted you in every kind of way. I am now choosing not to fall victim to the twin flame trek. We are what we are, but I can place this badge away with the honor. I know that one day I will be able to pull it out for our reunion... 

Ta-ta my love. 

Very truly yours, 

I Ask The Universe About You...

I’ve been asking the Universe about you...the one that I just happened to bump into. Bound from our first encounter, and we didn't even shake hands on it first. What is this I ask? I’ve asked that question for years now...what is this? You woke my soul up from a deep slumber and now I can’t get it back to sleep and it sure won’t rest without you. I cry the tears blue...without you…

I felt it was a selfish trick for the Universe to play... allow us to meet then take it away...but not too far away… because I am allowed to hear your voice but I can’t touch you. I am allowed to read your words but can’t grasp them in the physical...I miss you. Yet the ego has a hell of a way of limiting me on how much I tell you and I am sure your ego must be on that too. I whisper…please, love just let me be. 

It feels good to love you, though, and it hurts me when I fight it. So I stopped fighting. It hurts when your prance on my heart the way you do and then I speak good vibes out into the universe for you. I call your name three times, and the pain ceases and I am back to smiling at you and me. Then the Universe sends me love letters from you, asking me to remember you and me. Then out of the blue, you appear again, forcing me to show you where your heart is in me. But you never take it back you always leave it right here. I get a little more hope. I get a little more excited...I get a little more ambition...healed...lifted... 

Then there is another lesson that we must learn. Another obstacle we must face and I am left swinging...but then I get it. I conquer the lesson and I run out to the Universe, waving my hand saying look...I did it and ask is it time yet? I wait...I wait...I wait… 

I’ve been asking the Universe about you...Then…
111,222,333,444,1010,1111,1212 shows up again for the fifteenth-hundredth time…