ta-ta


"The day u chose 2 leave me
u rained constantly outside
In truth I swore the rain 2 be
The tears in Cupid's eyes" (Tupac Amaru Shakur)

There is nowhere to start and there is nowhere to end and the in-between has me restless. Sometimes there is only one thing left to say and that is ta-ta. The wish to no longer long for you. The strength to walk away completely whole and not in two. The courage to smile with love all the way through. The courage to tell the Universe "Thank you" and not feel blue. 

You see I wanted you in every kind of way. I am now choosing not to fall victim to the twin flame trek. We are what we are, but I can place this badge away with the honor. I know that one day I will be able to pull it out for our reunion... 

Ta-ta my love. 

Very truly yours, 

Penelope's Why...

Why do I want him? The connection I have felt with him since I 1st met him.
Why do I want him? I have never stopped thinking of him.
Why do I want him? He makes me smile from the inside out without trying and my world is alright.
Why do I want him? Maybe because I never had him.
Why do I want him? Because I never met anyone like him yet I barely know him on a surface level and that is what has  intrigued me.
Why do you want him? Because I am in love with him.
Why do I want him? Because he is handsome.
Why do I want him? He works hard.
Why do I want him? He is a good father.
Why do I want him? He heals me without medicine. Thats a special gift only God can provide. 
Why do I want him? Because I pray for him like I pray for myself and family. 
Why do I want him? He makes me anxious. 
Why do I want him? I imagine him.
Why do I want him? Because it's this weight on my heart that won't leave whenever he is not around. 
Why do I want him? Because he inspires me without trying.
Why do I want him? He motivates me without knowing.
Why do I want him? Because I want to know if everything I'm feeling is wrong and I can finally move on or melt into him. 
Why do I want him? Because the light of love in my eyes is enabled by him and has been for a long while now. 
Why do I want him? Because I want to know if I made it up. 
Why do I want him? Because the time with him is never enough.
Why do I want him? I want to teach him.
Why do I want him? I want to make his world better.
Why do I want him? I want to change the world with him.
Why do I want him? Because I want to love him like I have not loved another before.
Why do I want him? Because he ignites my flame.
Why do I want him? Because I am in love with him.
Why do I want him? To see if it was a lie. 
Why do I want him? To prove the Universe was right and it was meant to be and loving him was not in vain.