ta-ta


"The day u chose 2 leave me
u rained constantly outside
In truth I swore the rain 2 be
The tears in Cupid's eyes" (Tupac Amaru Shakur)

There is nowhere to start and there is nowhere to end and the in-between has me restless. Sometimes there is only one thing left to say and that is ta-ta. The wish to no longer long for you. The strength to walk away completely whole and not in two. The courage to smile with love all the way through. The courage to tell the Universe "Thank you" and not feel blue. 

You see I wanted you in every kind of way. I am now choosing not to fall victim to the twin flame trek. We are what we are, but I can place this badge away with the honor. I know that one day I will be able to pull it out for our reunion... 

Ta-ta my love. 

Very truly yours, 

The Love Note Inside Ascension

My soul hasn't been the same since another piece of my heart left me. This is the pain after the funeral is over and everyone got back to living the temporary lives we all got. This is the pain that keeps you up at night riddled with questions, despair, anguish, weariness, confusion, a mirror, some answers, some clues, tears of heartbreak that won't stop because of the memories. The pain that strengthens you without you knowing until you there at that moment...standing with a heavy heart but refusing to give up. The pain that allows you to see who really cares and who doesn't. The pain that reminds you that everything on earth is temporary.The pain that plays back thousands of memories like a film on fast speed and you can't breathe. 
I'm left reading the obituary knowing that the things one beautiful soul desired to do were never accomplished. I'm left with a lesson live, your life, the way you want with joy or live your life by settling and anticipate a better life after death. I'm left with this bitter taste that a beautiful soul settled. I'm left with encouragement to be the best-selling author I desire to be. I'm left with my temporary time here on earth and I can't waste it and that I have to live it wisely. I can't settle. I don’t have to wait for anyone to accept me, believe in me, love me with action, like me, help, or anything. There are people on this earth that God gives you and you never have to question their love. One beautiful soul had known my insecurities before I ever mouthed them, inspired me and spoke life over me. I'm left different today because a beautiful soul ascended.